Monday, March 23, 2015

A Sister's Love


I've been wanting to talk to Boogie about the very real possibility that Bunny has autism.  I feel like I talk about it to other people in front of her and sooner or later she's going to figure out what I am saying so I thought it needed to be on the table.

As Boogie and I were hiking for Bunny on Saturday we started talking about him.  I told her that I was fairly certain that Bunny had autism on top of his Down syndrome.  She had no idea what autism was so I had to explain it to her.  I honestly wasn't sure how she was going to react but in all honestly she reacted a lot like I did.

She stopped walking and sat down.  I heard "Its so unfair!" and "Why him??!"  It took everything in me not to start sobbing because she was echoing the same things that have been in my head for months.  I assured her I was doing everything I could for him.  I reminded her that two years ago she was out of control and we found a way to get her back.

And I'm so glad she is back because she said the sweetest thing a sister could say.  She said "Mom I wish I could be his twin...with the Down syndrome and the autism too so that I could be in his world with him"  After all of our talking, the hardest thing for her is the hardest thing for me.  That Bunny is not in our world.  That we don't get to know his thoughts or hear his opinion.  The thought that we might never get to breaks our hearts.

Boogie has the biggest most compassionate heart and I just know without a shadow of a doubt that she will be a huge advocate for her brother. We are so lucky to have her.

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