Tuesday, March 10, 2015

4 Years Old

I had great plans for this blog.  Sadly, I just never find the time.  I had to sign on tonight because my babies are turning 4 tomorrow.  I can hardly believe it.  I even decided that sitting down and getting all sappy was more important than my self imposed 10:00pm bed time.

I swear the boys are still this size in my mind.  It's hard for me to believe that they are going to be 4.  It feels like a million years since they were born and it feels like just yesterday. 

I can honestly say that my life would have been way easier without them in it.  Having these little guys has made things more chaotic and time consuming and complicated.  I wouldn't trade it for the world though.  Becoming a mom changed me but these little guys have helped me grow my character by leaps and bounds.

Buddy has helped me to be less judgmental.  He is the boy of my dreams and he is a firecracker.  I have often said that if all moms had one like him we would be less hard on each other because we would get it.  I never got "it"until I had him.  He has kept me on my toes since he was born.  We are infamous for our "Buddy" stories.  He has a million. 

He is going to be an amazing man.  I just know it.  We just have some hard work ahead of us. 

He is smart and funny and full of energy.  He loves superheroes and Target.  A superhero from Target is even better.  He is tough and he has amazing endurance for a little guy.  He keeps up with his sisters on our hikes and rarely complains.  He loves to laugh and dance and "shake his booty".  He is friendly and always makes new friends at the park. 

He has mellowed out a lot this year and for that I am thankful.  I still keep a close watch on him but I feel we are heading in the right direction.  I am so glad I get to be his mama.  I love him to pieces.

I don't know how to put into words what being Bunny's mom has taught me except to say that my priorities in life are not what they used to be.  Things that used to seem really important are not something I care about anymore.  I am learning to be assertive and even to handle confrontations.  Those are things I would have run from before.

Bunny is my sweet cuddle boy.  He loves to give me (and only me) lots of hugs and kisses.  He loves music and dogs and Pete the Cat.  His favorite thing is singing songs with motions.  Slippery Fish and Three Little Monkeys are the favorite right now. 

Much of his personality is yet to be discovered.  His (undiagnosed as of yet) Autism has hidden that from me but I see glimpses of a funny, caring, smart and determined young man in my son.  I am doing everything in my power to bring that out.  I have a feeling we will see a lot of growth this year.  I finally feel like I have a strong and supportive team that is going to help me fight for him.

I am so glad I get to be his mama.  My heart bursts with love for this boy.

So yes things may have been easier but they wouldn't have been nearly as rich and rewarding.  I may look 20 years older but my heart is a million times bigger...and that's what matters. 

Happy Birthday my sweet Babesters!!!!

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