Friday, October 31, 2014

Always Learning

I know I'm pretty out there when it comes to food.  People are always rolling their eyes at gluten free and even more so at Paleo.  I am not making these choices for my family on a whim or following trends.  I have done extensive reading and research.  I'm just trying to do the best for my family.

One of my favorite ways to learn is to listen to online "summits"  My very first and favorite summit was the Gluten Summit.  As you may or may not know, Boogie has gluten sensitivity so I was learning everything and absorbing everything I could so I could help her heal.  I learned so much!!

I am currently watching the Women's Weight Loss Solution.  These summits are usually a 24 hr viewing window but this one gives you 48 hours to watch each presenter which is nice for a busy mom.  I throw a presentation on while I'm doing my nightly chores.  I highly recommend listening to a few!

 My dad was telling me I was like Johnny #5 last night.  "Input! Input!" (If you have no idea what I'm talking about it's because you are way younger than me! ha ha)


Sunday, October 26, 2014

Finding my Creative Side

As some of you know, I made jewelry for years.  I sold my first necklace right off my neck then started selling to friends and family then moved to online.  A few months before the twins were born, I closed my shop because I knew things were going to be too crazy to continue.  I was right.

All of my jewelry making stuff is currently boxed in the boys closet.  I have toyed with the idea of making jewelry again but I have nowhere to set up my stuff.  Buddy would be into it in two seconds and beads would be all over my house (which is hilarious because the girls used to sit with me in my bead room and never got into trouble).

I really have been longing for a creative outlet.  This weekend I got some money gifted to me and I was browsing Etsy for a piece of jewelry to buy myself and went through pages and pages only to realize that I just didn't love anything.  I love what I make.  So I did something crazy and used that money to buy some supplies.  I honestly have no idea how I will pull this off.

When I say I don't have spare time I'm not exaggerating.  I do make spare time but something always suffers as a result....it's currently the cleanliness of my house.  I really think I need this though.  I need to create something from start to finish and to see the tangible result in my hand.

I'm really excited.  Now I just have to figure out where to set everything up.  I have no plans to make this a mother son hobby.

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Disgusted

I've been wanting to make my way back to my blogging lately and last night I read an article that was the kick I needed to sit down and write something.  I am not going to link to the article because it is vile but basically a mom of an adult man with Down syndrome tells the world all about how she wishes she would have aborted him.  She rants on and on about his bad behavior and lists the many ways he has ruined her quest for a "happy" life.

I was a little scared to read it because, if I am honest, one of my fears is dealing with an adult child with major behavioral problems.  I do believe in living in reality though so I cautiously clicked over to the article.  One thing that popped out at me immediately, was that her son was put in a group home from a very young age.  I believe that that was encouraged back then (I think the man is in his forties). Nowadays, babies with Down syndrome receive early intervention from birth.  I wonder how that would have changed her son's life?  I just can't even imagine sending my Bunny away to live with other people.  Can you imagine how that poor baby felt being sent to live away from his parents?  He saw them on the weekends too.  Talk about instability!


At first my heart did go out to the mom a little.  She was in her twenties when she had him.  I don't know about you but my maturity level from my twenties to my thirties was light years.  She said she was on the verge of a nervous breakdown.  One night her son was crying for hours and had been for days and he couldn't communicate what was wrong and she almost threw him down the stairs.  She checked herself into a mental institution if I remember correctly. 

I get how hard that is.  BUT if her newborn baby was crying for days would she have reacted the same?  To me it sounded like she resented him from birth.  She was mad that he was three and couldn't tell her what was wrong.


I don't think any mom of a special needs child is going to tell you that things are always easy.  I don't think any mom period is going to tell you that!  It was very clear to me that this woman has chosen bitterness though.  Instead of accepting her unexpected reality and finding the joy and beauty in it she has made up this alternate reality where everything would have been better "if only".  That is a ridiculous way to live.  She has no idea if another typical child would have made her happy and let all her dreams come true. 

This women claims to love her son.  It's honestly hard for me to believe.  I understand being mentally unstable and doing and saying things we don't mean but to have an article published for the world to read saying you wish you aborted your son?  To me that just proof that we need to let go of bitterness and the "what ifs" and choose to be happy and find joy in our situation.

While that may be a case of "easier said than done" it seems a whole lot easier than being bitter and resentful for forty some years.